Thursday, October 23, 2008

The Odyssey and The Idiot

It may be time to talk a little about my book, as I look back at prior postings, in my little part of the cyber-blog universe. What a tiny, minuscule part I play in the greater existence. This is OK, as long as my time here, either writing the blog, my next book or my life, are keeping my eye on the prize: my Lord. If I can go to my end knowing I did this as best I could, I should go contentedly. What a tremendous gift that will be. I hope I get it. I sincerely hope we all do. I wish this for all of you, even before me.

As I look over what I have written before, I see a pattern: keeping my faith strong, my desire to reflect Christ and my wavering. Until I started writing the blog, I had no idea how powerful an entity (s) this was in my life. I had no real reason to look that closely. As I tried to find out more about my faith (as God willed for me): Scripture, Sacred Tradition and the Church's Magisterium (the rules), I have been really learning what is expected of me and how to judge my efforts. I have learned more about my religion, outside of the basics I already knew, than I could have imagined. Why did God have me go through this experience? I don't know the answer, but I am happy I did and continue to do so.

When I was let go from work some years ago, I had time on my hands, needless to say, and I took a road trip with my kids (The Odyssey). What happened on that trip, above and beyond the ports of call we visited (The real Odyssey), is the central theme of the book: what it is to be a parent, how to be a better one, looking at the gifts sitting in the backseat (my kids) and where God was in all this. The Idiot was because I can be a little slow at times.

Isn't it funny, while I was in limbo, meaning I wasn't going to church too much (I hate to say this, but virtually no one could stand the new priest and folks left in droves; and I regret it), I don't recall ever doubting for a minute that God would protect me and mine and I would be vindicated completely. Isn't that funny? I knew less, and believed, without doubt. There is something great about approaching the Lord as a child, in a sense. I knew God loved me, though why I couldn't put my hands on ...

You know, I am a genius ... he said sarcastically. I found God in a million places on my trip and I thanked Him many times during it (and before and after). Gee, how could I show my gratitude to Him, who gave me all things? I could love him totally and believe in Him completely (as I detailed in my book).

And, I could learn more about my faith, what is expected of me, and what to do about it. I could work in a homeless shelter, something I would have previously found appalling. I could visit a nursing home and kibitz with the patrons while they played Bingo. I could pick sweet potatoes, if I were so inclined, to fill a food pantry. I could become a stronger disciple.

Now I ask you: how truly stupid am I? I have asked, above, why I have gone through this religious awakening? And here's the answer, right here. The payback. Not only for others, but the blessing it has become for me.

I want to thank the folks who suggested I start a blog. Had I not done this, I wouldn't, in all likelihood, have seen the forest for the trees.

Keith, I love you. Now show you love Me.

Had He not asked me to learn more, I wouldn't have known how to repay Him. It may not have occured to me, though not out of malice.

I will, my Lord. Now and forever. Look at what you have given me, a sinful, petty soul you knew was worth reaching. I am blessed beyond belief. I knew this, but now more than ever.

God bless,
KJPrice

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I Have Learned a Lesson: Don't Write From Anger and Frustration

There it is, right in the title. I give it over to the Lord, ask intercession from the Blessed Mother, and I write blog entries like I never asked them to help me. Unreal. I feel ashamed.

From the first blog entry a couple of months ago, I described myself as someone who tries very hard to live up to the Christian expectation of me (through the Catholic Church, specifically, in my case) and how I fail to meet the standards set. In some cases, yes, I do live up to them.

As I said 100 times in my book, I am the luckiest person on earth; blessed beyond belief, really. I want everyone to have what I had: a clean, sober cultural environment in which to grow. I know how it shaped me. Look, it was not Ozzie and Harriet at home, in any sense. But at the core of who we were culturally, it seemed to transcend any immediate shortcomings. If I did not grow up with the Von Trapp family itself, how potentially great could it be for everyone else who had better than I, which is what I really wish for? It is like saying why do you preach, in a word, the virtues of your particular faith tradition? Because I know what it does for me and I want everyone to have it. It is out of love for you -- everyone out there -- not to sound better than anyone. I know this is not always perceived as I want it.

So, I am stating for the record, when I go on about the culture or my faith, it is because I know what it did for me, a person unworthy of these gifts. And I say that as a humble thing, not to beg pardon or have anyone say no, we really love you; don't be so hard on yourself. It is not an act, but something of real substance to me.

I am distressed by the last blog entry because it did not reflect the theme of this blog: Christian love and the healing, supportive hand of Christ. Now you know it really is about love, though it came out as vitriol. I am so sorry about this. I could have deleted it, and wanted to, but at my own expense, I wanted to share a lesson I have learned. Part of which is this:

~ give it over to God and mean it.

~ pray for the Blessed Mother's intercession and mean it. After all, Jesus Himself conferred this status upon Her.

~ pray for understanding ... and wait for the result. Patiently. It is all in good hands.

~ have Faith and mean it. You preach it enough.

I wavered, and I am sorry. I will try to be clearer in my presentations in the future and be guided by the guide of whom I asked favor. That blog entry does not reflect my intention, as you can see and I regret subjecting the reader to it (both of you ...). The only answer is Christ, in all things.

And I forgot to remember it. I ask in prayer: let me reflect You in all things.

The only Utopia available to us. Nothing happens without His will. If things turn out differently than what I want, it is because He wants it this way. Why do I forget this elemental aspect of my faith? I am shamed of myself yet again. Please pray for me to grow, and refect my love for Christ. Your prayers are most welcome, and I will do the same for you.

God Bless you,
KJPrice

Monday, October 13, 2008

The Bunker Mentality

My friend and I are the co-presidents of the Ostrich Club. The only requirement for membership is to keep one's head firmly planted in the sand at the slightest hint of trouble. It can work beautifully. I am not referring to personal issues like at home, but business ones, for example, where you know nothing you can do will affect the outcome. This comes from years of experience.

Let's suggest we are sitting in the board room, say, and you have been working this job for over 30 years. Some young buck or buckette comes in and wants to set the world on fire with new ideas. So, you:

~ a) tell them they are utterly inexperienced and are spinning their wheels
~ b) they need to work smart, rather than the shotgun approach
~ c) you care about them, and don't want to see them waste time (like they would listen)

~d) firmly plant your head in the sand and tell them that it is the greatest idea you have ever heard in your life, and anything you can do to help would be your pleasure !!!!

So that when they become your boss one day, they will hopefully look back in gratitude for your support. Also, never noting that all they did was run around like a headless chicken and got nowhere, since this would take humility and we know that has no basis in business (ask Lehman's CEO).

Being an ostrich takes skill. And I have sand in my shirt as proof. 32 years and I finally grew a brain.

In a bigger sense, I see my country going to hell in a hand basket. The new generation and a goodly portion of the current one have no consideration of, or give credibility to, any of the qualities that brought us here. This is the mantra:

~ the military sucks, always does evil, like our gov't, and only losers who believe in patriotism go into it.

~ God is BS (ask Bill Maher. He may be right. If God created him, He may not exist ...)

~ have sex like it was buying candy and is as easily available (but not returnable for quality...)

~ abort the result, if you are dumb enough to get into this position (pardon the pun)

~ that Wall St is a bunch of greedy SOBs (partially true), who, by the way, through investment in the market and themselves, employ millions of people. Gosh, I hate them, keeping the economy afloat.

~ marriage is a piece of paper instead of a commitment. Just tear it up, if you don't like it.

~ If you make over $250.0 per year you are considered rich. Anyone who makes $250.0 a year knows that belief is total BS. If we are so rich, where is all my freaking money? I go to Destin for vacation and drive a Ford Focus. $250.0 is the new middle class. Needless to say, my savings went down the toilet recently.

~ back to the Wall St. pinheads: they work 15 hours a day or more. They just aren't considered working Americans. I guess you have to put nails in wood to be considered an authentic American.

~ the gov't will mandate to whom I give charity. These idiots can't run a DMV. Who are they to tell me where I can give charity? I give $1,000.00 a year to Parkland Hospital because I have to? Who patronizes the place?: Illegal immigrants. My kid just had surgery there and I promise it was not free for me. Maricons!!!

~ with liberals running all three branches of the G (soon), what is to stop them from taking my social security and doling it out to those, in their minds, more deserving? And what of this threat that it will run out of money. I never hear that welfare is going to run out of money, do you?

Where do I turn now? I will not watch TV, I will not listen to talk radio, I will not read the paper. The new trend of America, no judgement and a moral free for all, is the same as the immature, idiot new business person: no thought or experience required. And I am powerless to do anything.

And I can't tell them to go for it because my future will be severely impacted on a spiritual level. Business is one thing, but morality and ethics are a whole other ball game, and more important than anything else. I am running out of sand to put my head in.

Let an atheist concede that God exists, when we meet up, what is He going to ask? I am guessing did we truly love or did we do otherwise? Were the things we embraced, our gods, meaningful and transcendent? Are the values that made our country great have anything in common with His edicts? Yes: fairness, compassion, self reliance, reward for work, the chance to succeed (look at Obama...), God centered, charitable and no one gets left out except by choice. Just like France, right? No.

So I am going to crawl into a bunker and hunker down. I am truly afraid. It seems our current society has no concept of history and an inordinant love for socialism. What can I do? If I find a better place, I am going there. If it is an island in the Marianas, fine. Then I'll be one of the last taken prisoner in the next war. There is a war on now and I am fighting it. I just can't win it. It ain't that complicated, for everyone to live with self respect and the respect of others. So why keep monkeying with it? Utopia doesn't happen, so quit it.

Oh, there is one Utopia: Jesus. The word of God made flesh, and the only answer to everything. My bunker door is open only to Him and those that love Him more than anything else. Think about it: if we all lived by loving our neighbors as ourselves in the truest sense, we'd have the Utopia we seek.

And I wouldn't be writing this entry.

But even He knew it was a goal that could be gotten only in heaven. The real America reflects Him more than anywhere else on this planet, past or present. Why change it? Polar bears? And how could you possibly hate it so much to think this way?

God bless you.
KJPrice

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Prayer Is The Only Response To Calamity

So for the two of you that read "The Odyssey and the Idiot" ... you know I am neither Democrat or Republican. I am a traditionalist, meaning the qualities that brought us here are the ones to be embraced. Not the ones that have gotten such tremendous press the last 30 years (though they have been visible for 1,000s) such as abortion and gay rights, but love of country, faith in God's love for our endeavour, ruling for the masses while having recourse for the minority; not the other way around.

I'll tidy this up at the end, but bear with me as I explain what leads to my conclusion. Please note: just about everything I will mention gets inordinate attention, when it should be at the fringes, where it belongs.

The rights of those who wish to abort: 48 million babies have been terminated in the last 35 years. Of this, I would guess 1%, if that, was a result of incest or rape. It is a birth control device. Needless to say, I am firmly against this innate evil. My friend recently asked me, "what if your daughter was raped and impregnated?". I would hate that, of course. But I can't make a rule for the one percent, in order to allow the other 99%. There is no way pregnancy would occur without God's will. Period. And I accept this.

Democrats favor abortion.

Gay Marriage: Nope. It is a culture of death, just like abortion. Society would end tomorrow: no more kids. No more immortal souls created. It is evil, morally. We are all given our crosses to bear in this life. Some of us manage or try to, while others do not. This is their cross; their trial. How have they fared?

Democrats favor gay marriage. And special rights also. You can hide you are gay, you can not hide you are black. This is why it incenses me when they call gay rights a civil right. Just shut up and keep it private, please. And then don't do it anyway. God said not to. Enough for you??

Atheism: I love these people. Folks who have lived, say, 40 years, have come to the startling conclusion that religion is horse hockey. Agnostics fit in this group as well. Let me make sure I understand: geniuses like St. Thomas Aquinas, St. Thomas More, St. Jerome or any other master theologian ... have been completely taken in ... by fiction. Right. The average meatball may think God is bs; Christ made up. Let me see: genius vs. meatball? Who wins? I wish to defer to folks who have been considering issues of faith and morals for 2,000 years, as opposed to a sandfly who has been considering same for an hour and a half.

Democrats love people like this.

PS there is no way, NONE, that a person could sit down, create, through writing, a perfect person like Jesus unless He was real, existed, so one would have a model to compare against, and God Himself. This simple logic itself is lost on many. It ain't that complicated.

Joe Biden has hair plugs and capped teeth: OK, I made that one up, as far as a critical issue. Although, he does have to look in the mirror daily, which is pretty serious. And he should be Excommunicated. It can be lifted, but it is a great little wake up call to arrogance.

Liberals are almost always wrong on key issues that affect our lives. If they win the presidential election, which I think they will, they will, be their very natures, damage the pillars of what brought us here. They hate God (if you don't follow His edicts within the church you attend, you don't love Him), they rule for small minorities, at the expense of the majority. They encourage class warfare, like it is a new phenomenon. William Jennings Bryan, who ran 3 times for president, had this as a core philosophy. He was a democrat, by the way. However, he was a very good man who loved God. He wanted to create a more fair environment for the smaller folk, not create malice and enmity, like his brethren wish to do today. Do you want the government mandating to whom you give charity, sending tax relief to folks who have not paid tax in the first place? Get ready. The government can't even run a DMV it doesn't make me nauseous to go to. Now this? Barack called it "neighborly". I call it madness.

There will be more appointments to the Supreme Court, who will take the gift of our constitution and create decisions with no foundation in the same document.

They will recreate the rules and further render economic calamity. How? In order to fill a quota, give availability to folks who can't manage it. In the interest of fairness... Not merit, mind you, which makes the world better, but coddling, which takes away incentive and makes things worse, publicly and personally.

Gee, I think the dems are on to something. Let's create a utopia in some manner! Great idea. I think they are the first folks to ever think of this, cause they sure act like it. Who's Plato? I love it. We always think we are the first to think about critical issues. 300 billion dollars has been spent to alleviate poverty since FDR was president. You mean, someone else cared about the poor too? No, we just thought of it. This is called arrogance, the sin of the Garden. I can't help but note that all this spending has not made poverty disappear. All that money ... there has got to be a better way. Give it to a church or something. At least they know how to do this kind of thing.

When most of the electorate gets its info from the mass media who HATES American values as outdated, and votes to feel good (and leaving practicality by the wayside), I foresee calamity coming; God cast aside. We make our own rules! Adam and Eve were the first politically correct people. The serpent said don't listen to God because He doesn't want you to be like Him. Eat from that tree, and no one can tell you what you should or should not do. You judge right from wrong yourselves. Gosh, isn't this type of thinking a new phenomenon?, since we advocate it daily in the media: no judgment? We act like it. No way someone writing 5,000 years ago would know anything. Memo to the geniuses: our problems, our natures and our solutions have been under discussion for all these years. Nothing is new. Just keep trying to fix things with new, brilliant solutions. Nothing will change. Work to improve the condition, but don't for a minute think your solution will make it go away.

I lay in bed the other night, my stomach churning. I despair that simple truths are overlooked, in order to support a dubious agenda. It isn't fair out there and it isn't going to be. Crooked CEOs with golden parachutes will fare well, while the other's 401s go to hades. Our DISD chief, who has an 84mil shortfall in the budget, will keep his job (and lose his honor), while esteemed teachers will get whacked. He won't even resign as a matter of conscience. Put all these issues together and what have we got? A very sad person: me (and several others like me).

I worry about the future, where real values and solutions are laughed at.

I prayed for relief.

I also got it.

These are temporal problems. I prayed that those in power would see the light of the Lord and come to understand what I do, through His gifts to me. I have no other solution to offer. Besides, what better response to calamity is there than Christ and His love? It is there, will be there, and we need to see it. He will watch out for us who love Him. He will watch out for others too. Everyone. He has a plan. I / we just need to keep our eyes focused on it. It won't be easy, but it will be done. If there is a better way -- and there is not -- I have yet to see it. I can only pray that others will wake up to this simple reality as well.

All is well in His hands.

God Bless,
Keith