Thank you , Lord, For Allowing Me To Live Long Enough To Come To My Senses

I am 54 now. I have the whole shebang: gray hair (about 12 of them), sciatica, recent surgery to remove hardware (because I am an idiot; I actually laughed at myself as I lay on the ground, in the middle of a huge street, after falling from my bike 2 years ago), can feel the knees failing ... and if I take one more pill for what ails me, I'm gonna get on the bike and keep riding into the sunset (and falling, no doubt).

I am joking, of course, because age does breed infirmity and is unavoidable. Unless you are a friend of mine who has never been sick a day in his life. Never taken an antibiotic or has been sick enough to. Why his people left Ireland because they were lacking a couple of potatoes mystifies me. Seems to me he could have schouldered anything. Secretly, must be a wimp. I'll will definitely tell him. I am compelled to.

As I lay in bed the other morning, which is my second favorite thing to do, a thought came into my head (that's a first). It wasn't the first time.

"Lord, I want to thank You for not taking me sooner, before I had a chance to come to my senses and repent where needed."

Had He seen fit to take me when I was, say, 30, traveling the world like I owned the place, taking my want of things, getting to know women, leaving, very little charity other than money and putting God second, I'd be writing on paper that was on fire. Maybe not permanently, but enough to scorch the hard edges off me. Where I would have been I have to trust to God's mercy.

So, here I sit today, having learned what is really important: God, church, family, charity, devotion, loyalty, compassion. I always knew this in the back of my mind, but my focus was more me than Him. I had this ache I couldn't get rid of then. I came to my senses with age.

God gifted me. He has work for me to do. I will swallow what I have to and do it, for the least of ours. I sit here typing, in gratitude. I could have paid Him back a lot better sooner. Better late than never, especially since I was given the chance to have the chance.

If this isn't God's love, I do not know what is.

God Bless,
KJPrice